How 5.7.12 Changed My Life
Not a lot of people know this but today (5th July) holds a special day to me. It’s not my anniversary with Ozias, not my birthday nor his birthday, not anybody’s birthday for that matter. It is actually the day when I first stepped into New Zealand.
Why is this day special to me, you may ask? Because it’s the day that changes the entire course of my life. Had I not come to New Zealand, I would still be climbing the career ladder in McCann. Not that working in McCann is a bad thing; it’s just that life then is predictable. Work, eat, sleep, repeat.
How is it different living in NZ 2 years ago and now?
Then, I had a sum of money and free to roam around NZ wherever the job wind takes me to.
–> I first arrived in Christchurch
–> With no plans in mind, I went to Dunedin to visit Li Kee for 2 weeks
–> Then went back up to Akaroa where I was woofing (work in exchange of accommodation) for 2 weeks
–> And then to Blenheim for a job in the vineyard
All these happen in 1 month time which is quite cool la. I get to travel to a few cities and expand my social circle.
Now, I have close to no fund and I am restraint from travelling. This is because I am currently living with my partner thus by hook or by crook, I would need to get a job in this city. Cannot simply travel to another city even if there are more opportunities.
Somehow, i feel that it is easier to feel motivated during my WH. Back then i had no plan to migrate to NZ. I only thought of staying here for 9 months. When I know I have a limited amount of time to have fun here, i make the best of every situation, every moment, every second. 9 months is a very short time. I certainly don’t want to waste my time wallowing at all the bad things that happened to me. I can complain all i want but if i don’t take any actions to amend the situation, it will never change.
However, these days i find myself easily demotivated. Sadly, I am not as strong as before. I let complacency get the better out of me. I am such a lazy bum and a mess; it’s disgusting. I have to constantly myself that this is not the end of the world. Always have to kick myself up to stay positive and remember all the life lessons that i learnt during my NZWH.
How has my life changed after NZWH?
Honestly, the experience has been incredible; I just don’t know where to start.
On a personal level, I have grown into a mature young lady (if I may say so myself). Some of the life lesson learnt during my solo traveling experience.
1) Be confident
At your darkest hour, have a little faith that things will work out for you. Believe there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. Bad things happened for a reason – to make you a stronger person.
Remember, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger 🙂
2) Be grateful
New Zealand is undeniably one of the most beautiful places in the world. One particular moment I will never forget was in Greymouth. It was the early part of my travels and at times I was daunted with fear. Not used to living alone. However, I told myself – You can either be scared for the whole time or you can face your fear and have the best trip of your life. So i challenged myself to go for a trek alone and it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I was rewarded with a gorgeous view at the lookout point.
While admiring the view, I spent the moment in silence. Oh how beautiful this place is. The soft crashes of the waves ease my troubles away. The calmness of the hollow wind made my heart feel at peace. I was lucky to be enjoying a view like this. So I thanked the universe for blessing me with a myriad of amazing opportunities and the beautiful life lessons that it imparted on me. Every single good things that happened to me makes me feel so grateful and makes me want to give it back to the world.
3) You don’t know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have
My working holiday wasn’t all butterflies and rainbows. I had my fair share of misery. One of the toughest experience that I had to endure was working in the vineyard in the cold. Winter in Blenheim is about 0-1c in the morning and at that time you have to bust your ass and make some money. If you are slow, you will be asked to leave. I was called out a couple of times in front of my peers, I was humiliated and mocked at work and at home. Every single thing that I do was scrutinized under the microscope; I felt suffocated and cried myself to sleep a couple of times. But I proud that I managed to endure it all and come out stronger.
Every time I feel like giving up or feeling down, I will revisit those painful memories as those are the most difficult time of my life and I wish to never go through that sort of humiliation again.
I owe NZ for this brand new person that I am. I am now an ambitious person. I have targets in life that I want to achieve. I want to continue inspiring people through my blog. I want to improve my writing skills and reach out to a wider audience. I also wish that someday I’ll be able to own a business. From time to time, when I thought of an idea, I will quickly pen down in my diary. When i feel lost with no sense of direction, the diary will come in handy and serves as a reminder and motivation towards my goal.
I hope I did not bore you guys with my thoughts. I actually do not know who will read this but if someday, you are at a crossroads with life-changing junction looking at you, don’t be afraid to take the road not taken. Don’t be afraid to be out of your comfort zone. Trust me; complacency is the roadblock to success. Take risk. Indulge in fear. And at the darkest hour, you will emerge as your finest self.