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Jul 27 14

How bizzare

by melmonica

 

Edit: Updated for more wtf.

Helloooooooooooo *wave*

I apologize for MIA. Was in a bad state of mind and i decided to take a break to focus on regaining my positivity.

 

Anyhoo, i’ve been attending interviews here and there and i reckon maybe part of why i didn’t get the job is because i don’t speak with an accent. Initially, sayang has a hint of Kiwi accent but now i help him to Malaysianize already hahaha. And this Wednesday I have a very, very important interview that I really wana excel in it. It’s an interview with the city council and it’s for a marketing position! *pops champagne*Aih, interview only la. Not like I bag the job already hrmph. SO excited when they called me and now i’m freaking out hoping that i do not screw it. So for these few days i gotta practise speaking with an accent but i don’t want to sound fake too. I hate people who speaks with a fake accent and now i’m turning into one wtf.

On to more happier news. THE WEATHER! LOOOKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

It’s slowly getting warmer. Yay! Can’t wait to ditch the winter wear and slip into something more carefree and light <3

 

Other than that, i have nothing more to report. Don’t think you guys wana know about the bizarre dreams that i’ve been having every night.

So my life is pretty much the same. Read a lot. Watch a lot. Eat even more.

I’m signing off now. So please please please wish me luck for my interview. I need tonnes of it.

Till then, BAI!

 

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Okay, just remember this and it’s quite funny so must document it here wtf.

Last Wednesday, I went to the library. An uncle was sitting in my spot so ok fine. I resolved to this uncomfortable seat. But nevermind lah got powerpoint. Get your priorities right!

Was happily chatting with this Chai Soo Ai la then my tummy became a washing machine. Did some twisting and turning (it was the time of the month. and also first day wtf) Then suddenly i feel very hot. Don’t know if the library adjust the temp but the other patron look okay. I started fidgeting and my heart beats so fucking fast (never felt like this before so it was a pretty big deal for me).

So i text sayang to pick me up.

Usually i have a pretty high threshold for pain/ anything uncomfortable but i think enough is enough wtf.

I called sayang but he didn’t pick up.

Called him again but to no avail.

Somehow i quickly pack up my stuffs and dash out of the library to the hallway for some fresh air.

Still fidgeting and feeling uncomfortable. Change my seating position also doesn’t help.

Finally he’s here. Went into the car. Was sad that i had to cut my date with the internet short but also feeling glad that i’m not feeling stuffy anymore.

As he was driving, i felt dizzy. Then, I started gagging.

And i vomited my Burger King out (had that earlier). I was impressed that my aim is so accurate. I covered my mouth so i only vomit into both of my palms. But then i don’t think it is appropriate to hold that position until i reach home so i let it go and it piak between my legs wtf. My shoes are vomit-free.

Sayang stopped the car and continued letting me vomit on his car mat. Didn’t even offer me a plastic bag until i asked for it wtf.

And i must say, my puke smells quite good. Even the bf agree wtf.

After that i request for a kiss but he didn’t want to give me wtf. So much for for better or for worse.

 

In retrospect, it’s quite funny lah coz i don’t usually vomit unless it’s a really bad case of food poisoning.

Okay, library closing in 5 minutes. I sign out for real this time.

Have a great week ahead everyone! Bai!

 

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Jul 14 14

Done with One Week Trial

by melmonica

 

Yay, finally i’m done with it! *throws confetti* As much as i enjoyed the work experience, i am so glad to kick back and catch up on my sleep. #lazypig

So last week i accepted the 1 week work experience just cuz i’m too free. I started on Tuesday (8/7) and went in with an empty mind to absorb as much as i possibly can.

On the 1st 2 days i was assigned to dishes & runner.

Well, how hard could it get right? Wait till it’s lunch hour and kitchen closing time. It feels running in a never ending marathon. Working hours wise was fine. 10.30am – 4pm. 5.5 hours. Not too long lah. I can handle it de.

Back in Starbucks, doing the dishes was my fav thing to do. Coz i don’t need to layan customers & i get to layan my own thoughts. At one point, i asked myself why am i doing this? I have a Marketing degree and why am i washing dishes for a living? Oh right. Because i am greedy. Because i wasn’t contented with my life. See. Greedy lor. But i guess, in whatever you do in life, there is a starting point where you have to bust your ass harder than before. Keeping my fingers crossed for a better outcome >.<

Oh almost forget to mention! The bf made tang yuan for breakfast! Very filling and satisfied. And when i’m done for the day, he picked me up and we went to watch the sunset by the beach. Then he surprised me with a gift! A mitten from Glassons!

He bought this for me coz he’s scared that it’ll be too cold to walk home. And he’s proud that i’m on trial. Wah like that got present for my next interview and next trial ma? Also what about my first job here heheh. #spoilt

3rd & 4th day – Sandwich dept

I almost cried when i saw the working hours. 7am – 2pm. 7!! Freaking 7am?!!!!! I am not a morning person. Thus, i reluctantly set my alarm at 5.30am and forced my biological clock to shut down at 11pm. And do you think it happened? Of course not! I usually sleep at 2am so this was quite a struggle. In the end, i didn’t manage to sleep well for fear of oversleeping. Then on 2nd night i KO-ed at midnight and slept till 5.30am (achievement unlocked!). But after 2 nights of sleeping early/ waking up earlier i literally died after my shift. At 4.30pm the washing machine guy brought a new one for us (woohoo!). After he left i tried to go back to bed but i can’t. So just lay in bed for an hour before deciding to wash up. Then, i hid under the duvet, playing dead while listening to music. On and off i’d wake up to reply sayang’s text. At 9.10pm with eyes half-opened, i woke up then thought, “Okay. Still got 30 minutes before i need to start cooking for him”. Mana tau i slept till 10pm. Quickly apologize to the bf via text. Actually duno why i did that lor. Coz he’s most probably on his way home already. Half-asleep mind is super blur!

Usually, i’ll welcome him home but i was too exhausted to even leave the bed. Felt so guilty but luckily he’s understanding and even whipped out a quick dinner! Surprisingly, he let me eat it in bed. Was contemplated of asking him to feed me while i’m lying down but didn’t. Sat up and clumsily hold my bowl of fried noodles. So yums!

We chatted about our days but i was too tired to report wtf. So i fend him off by asking him to do the dishes or go shower so that i can get a quick nap while he’s out of the bedroom. But the moment he opened the door, my eyes are wide open and pretended to think about something deep. #butactuallyhalfasleep

We agreed to watch The Tourist but I ended up sleeping 15 mins later and woke up to him sleeping but the laptop was still on.

On Saturday, i spent my time lazing at home. After the bf left for work, i played Monopoly then slept for 2 hours straight! Can’t remember when was the last time i felt this tired! Oh, when i started working in Starbucks wtf. I remembered telling my colleague about the things i do after work and she said the same too. Her mom even commented, “Ko ni macam OKU la” Coz she’s always lying down on the couch/ bed after work. Yay, i’m not the only one!

Okay wrote a little too much on my sleeping habit. So work in the sandwich dept was AWESOME! I got to learn to make sandwiches, wraps and paninis HOMAIGOD it made me hungry all the time! And working in the kitchen is the same as what you watch on Top Chef. There were some experimentation on new food and we were the guinea pigs. And the pastry chef was very generous and gave me some fudge. Not helping with my expanding waistline! But being the Asian me, of cos i was secretly happy to indulge in free food! :D

Other than that, my sandwich partner-in-crime was incredibly friendly! She is so helpful and accommodating to all my silly questions. You know what? i feel that it’s okay for us Asian to ask any silly questions to our Westerners counterparts because of the culture and lifestyle differences and they wouldn’t be judgmental at all. Actually, i feel that Westerners are generally non-judgmental people la. It’s the Asian that are always so competitive and trying to do more to impress. Anyway, my point is i love asking stupid questions. Questions that doesn’t makes sense. Questions on topics that nobody thought of. Just silly, random ones. When i was young, i was no allowed to ask questions cos it is deemed rude (Asian upbringing). So i promised myself not to do that to my kids in the future. If i don’t know the answer to their questions, i will google together with them :) #winwin

On my last day, i worked as a barista for 4 short hours. It didn’t help that the day was a little busy thus i had no proper training and had to help the others out. But i was glad that i improved tremendously! Previously, my biggest struggle was to get handler hooked and making the perfect shot. Now i am proud to say that i got my technique right albeit slow. #practisemakesperfect

In the end, i didn’t get the job (as expected). They required an expert level barista while i was only starting to get the technique right. I may be slow but i watched the other barista, they are pretty inconsistent with their performance also. Even when their shots are not perfect they’d still serve the customer coz the line is too long.

So i was a little bummed that everything is over. Would do it again in a hearbeat! Love all the friendly peeps and the owner is one of the most humble person i’ve ever seen. Whenever my shift is over, he would personally thank me. I’m like, “Umm, i should thank you for the opportunity and experience.” The whole crew is so nice, i hope the business will flourish.

 

On another note, i have been keeping up with some of my best girlfriends about their lifes – wedding & pregnancy. It is so fun to talk to the topics that i have yet to experience. I’m a curious cat by nature so i’ll bombard them with tonnes of questions. I’m so happy that one of my girlfriends plans to get hitched next year. Hopefully it’ll be the same time when I’m back in MY. If not, i’ll be glad to help out with whatever she needs beforehand.

From time to time, i envision what my future wedding will be like and write it in a vision diary. I have a mental note of the things i want for my cake, decor, table setting, dress and thank you gifts. It’s so nice to let my imaginations run wild, planning on a small, intimate affair. On the downside, if i were to make all these ideas come true, it’ll be one expensive wedding! Coz most of them are custom made unless i DIY la!  Whatever la! At the moment, we have no time to be married bcoz we’re he’s too busy with work and saving money wtf.

I apologized for the wordy post. Didn’t take much picture for a while now. Tomorrow it’s his day off so hopefully i’ll remember to take some lah! Toodles!

 

 

 

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Jul 5 14

How 5.7.12 Changed My Life

by melmonica

 

Not a lot of people know this but today (5th July) holds a special day to me. It’s not my anniversary with Ozias, not my birthday nor his birthday, not anybody’s birthday for that matter. It is actually the day when I first stepped into New Zealand.

Why is this day special to me, you may ask? Because it’s the day that changes the entire course of my life. Had I not come to New Zealand, I would still be climbing the career ladder in McCann. Not that working in McCann is a bad thing; it’s just that life then is predictable. Work, eat, sleep, repeat.

How is it different living in NZ 2 years ago and now?

Then, I had a sum of money and free to roam around NZ wherever the job wind takes me to.

–> I first arrived in Christchurch

–> With no plans in mind, I went to Dunedin to visit Li Kee for 2 weeks

–> Then went back up to Akaroa where I was woofing (work in exchange of accommodation) for 2 weeks

–> And then to Blenheim for a job in the vineyard

All these happen in 1 month time which is quite cool la. I get to travel to a few cities and expand my social circle.

 

Now, I have close to no fund and I am restraint from travelling. This is because I am currently living with my partner thus by hook or by crook, I would need to get a job in this city. Cannot simply travel to another city even if there are more opportunities.

 

Somehow, i feel that it is easier to feel motivated during my WH. Back then i had no plan to migrate to NZ. I only thought of staying here for 9 months. When I know I have a limited amount of time to have fun here, i make the best of every situation, every moment, every second. 9 months is a very short time. I certainly don’t want to waste my time wallowing at all the bad things that happened to me. I can complain all i want but if i don’t take any actions to amend the situation, it will never change.

However, these days i find myself easily demotivated. Sadly, I am not as strong as before. I let complacency get the better out of me. I am such a lazy bum and a mess; it’s disgusting. I have to constantly myself that this is not the end of the world. Always have to kick myself up to stay positive and remember all the life lessons that i learnt during my NZWH.

 

How has my life changed after NZWH?

Honestly, the experience has been incredible; I just don’t know where to start.

On a personal level, I have grown into a mature young lady (if I may say so myself).  Some of the life lesson learnt during my solo traveling experience.

1)      Be confident

At your darkest hour, have a little faith that things will work out for you. Believe there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. Bad things happened for a reason – to make you a stronger person.

Remember, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger :)

 

2)      Be grateful

New Zealand is undeniably one of the most beautiful places in the world. One particular moment I will never forget was in Greymouth. It was the early part of my travels and at times I was daunted with fear. Not used to living alone. However, I told myself – You can either be scared for the whole time or you can face your fear and have the best trip of your life. So i challenged myself to go for a trek alone and it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I was rewarded with a gorgeous view at the lookout point.

While admiring the view, I spent the moment in silence. Oh how beautiful this place is. The soft crashes of the waves ease my troubles away. The calmness of the hollow wind made my heart feel at peace. I was lucky to be enjoying a view like this. So I thanked the universe for blessing me with a myriad of amazing opportunities and the beautiful life lessons that it imparted on me. Every single good things that happened to me makes me feel so grateful and makes me want to give it back to the world.

3)      You don’t know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have

My working holiday wasn’t all butterflies and rainbows. I had my fair share of misery. One of the toughest experience that I had to endure was working in the vineyard in the cold. Winter in Blenheim is about 0-1c in the morning and at that time you have to bust your ass and make some money. If you are slow, you will be asked to leave. I was called out a couple of times in front of my peers, I was humiliated and mocked at work and at home. Every single thing that I do was scrutinized under the microscope; I felt suffocated and cried myself to sleep a couple of times. But I proud that I managed to endure it all and come out stronger.

Every time I feel like giving up or feeling down, I will revisit those painful memories as those are the most difficult time of my life and I wish to never go through that sort of humiliation again.

 

I owe NZ for this brand new person that I am. I am now an ambitious person. I have targets in life that I want to achieve. I want to continue inspiring people through my blog. I want to improve my writing skills and reach out to a wider audience. I also wish that someday I’ll be able to own a business. From time to time, when I thought of an idea, I will quickly pen down in my diary. When i feel lost with no sense of direction, the diary will come in handy and serves as a reminder and motivation towards my goal.

 

I hope I did not bore you guys with my thoughts. I actually do not know who will read this but if someday, you are at a crossroads with life-changing junction looking at you, don’t be afraid to take the road not taken. Don’t be afraid to be out of your comfort zone. Trust me; complacency is the roadblock to success. Take risk. Indulge in fear. And at the darkest hour, you will emerge as your finest self.

 

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Jun 30 14

The Aftermath

by melmonica

 

Haha what an exaggeration.

Right now i’m feeling some ache on my arms for working to hard wtf.

Last night was pretty depressing. Once i reached home, i had no one to talk to. But thanks to technology i have my friends by my side <3

Special thanks to the group of 5 – Nem, Bra, Bavin & Yuha for keeping me sane and giving me the much-needed motivation to stay positive. So much of happy/ once-in-a-lifetime event happening at home and i’m not there to experience it :( So there is a compulsory trip home next year coz seriously how can i miss my best friend’s wedding right?!!! It is unacceptable! Bra has been my friend since 12, we used to cycle to the photo shop to photostat some assignments for our class then have ice cream at Fajar. I still remember Nasriq had mint ice cream that time lol.

Us (minus Bavin) during my 19th birthday celebration in Pangkor. OMGGGGG look at that hairstyles and dressing! LOL. And to think that half of the people here are married shows how far we’ve come through!

Deepavali 2009 with better hair and fashion :)

I super love this people. Really thankful to have them growing up with me. Part of who i am now is because of this awesome childhood friends. Wouldn’t wana trade the world for it.

They are one of the motivating factor for me to work hard, save up and go home next year!!

Also listing down some so that i’ll be excited enough to start writing my resume!!

 

1) Awesome food

Obviously. Delicious food that worth the calories. Craving for Village Park Nasi Lemak. My one first true love LOL.

 

2) Spending time with family & friends

- Wana fly to Kuching to be with my family and Kalung (pet dog).

So cuteeee righttttt? But lansi de wtf. Whenever i call him, he won’t choi me/ buat bodoh. But when i left Kuching, mom said he will go into my room and look for me. Stupid dog when i was there you dowan to sayang me but when i left only come find me aih. OK la not stupid la. Sayangs <3

 

- Bra’s wedding as mentioned. Die die also must go backkkk. If I had to get a 2nd job to fund my trip, I’ll do it!

Suddenly feel lazy to continue my list jor. I am so easily distracted. Or is it easily give up? I choose to believe the former haha.

 

OK lemme tell you about my friends who spent time making me feel better after yesterday’s event.

 

I was writing about my experience when i whatsapp Amir (my Starbucks supervisor) about the name of the coffee machine that we used. But he replied after i was done with the blogpost so i didn’t include it :/Then i told him about my experience with the trial. Telling him how demotivated i was. Like i was fucking useless and then he said he missed me. I was instantly touched then i said, “I wana go back Starbucks Manjung can?” LOL. Then he motivated me by telling me how hardworking i was and that got me reflecting on why i love being a barista in the first place. That was the motivation needed actually. Then i decided to accept the 1-week unpaid trial to practice using the coffee machine. I guess, if i apply at the other cafe, they will all be using similar type of machine so why not take this opportunity to familiarize myself and not screw up on my next interview/ trial.

And then i started looking for other alternative if Starbucks take their time to process their application. Wanted to try for a position in library. Yesterday they told me just drop my CV and they’ll contact me but until now i’m still procrastinating. Why am i so lazy? Is it because i’ve been out of job since Dec? T3T

 

Anyway, kinda miss working in a brainless, menial job like in a factory. The (only) best thing about working in NZ is no matter what shitty job you’re working in, you get paid the minimum wages $13.80 (before tax). So your wages for an 8-hour job is about $90 (after tax). NZ has really strict labour law. If you work more than 40 hours/week then your overtime wages is 1.5x more. Thus, most organization die die will only let you work max 40 hours/week because they don’t want to pay you overtime. Sucks for people who wana earn more money (like me) but that’s why i’m planning to get a 2nd job when my first job is stable. But now really have to start from scratch. Need to have more conversation with the universe so that it’ll grant me my dream job in Starbucks!

 

Has anybody realized? July iz hereeeee!!!

To kick start the coldest month of winter.

OMG Seriously?! Macam mana mau enjoy nih? This is depressing weather!

Good news is tomorrow the bf and i will check out internet plans for our house (like finally!) but it’ll probably take 1-2 weeks for them to install so in the meantime i still need to depend on library wifi. But how la like this! I hate going out in cold day. So this week will just be me fixing my resume, cooking, monopoly with myself and overused of mobile internet.

Reading blogs instead of doing something productive pfft. Taking in max satisfaction with my relationship with wi-fi here. Am reading about travel blog in Japan and i am sad to announce that my ability to read hiragana & katakana has deteriorated. I have troubles recognizing the characters wtf. Go back Malaysia must bring my Japs book here so that i can keep practising the language. #determined

Yay tomorrow is bf de day off! Gonna have Japs for lunch and then watch Transformer 4. Tonight is our weekly grocery night but since we still have a lot of meat, gonna splurge on mushroom this week. Menu for the week – egg soup, Korean porky dish, couscous (super love it! easiest, healthy & hearty meal!) pasta (so long no eat lor) and maybe pesto tortellini la. It iz the best! Aiyo all these only 5 meals, need to squeeze my brain juice to think of more recipes edi!

Oh, btw i make the best scramble eggs. So light and fluffy. I didn’t put any seasoning into it also feel so delish. Yums! Bf hasn’t had the chance to try it yet coz i cooked for myself during lunch. Anyway, the bf and i have very different style of cooking. I try to use as little seasoning as possible for the reason of kiamsiap + healthy LOL. But bf’s cooking are more flavourful and oily (sinful). I think he eats my healthy cooking until sienz jor until crave for oily food.

Oh i have a new addiction! Fried noodle haha. I shamelessly proclaim to make the best fried noodle. So this week gonna buy more noodles to cook. Wana cook tomyam flavour, gochujang flavour, sesame oil too and uhm that’s all i guess :X No more instant noodle for me for the time being. Sick of it jor. But the bf super love it. So you eat yourself ha!

 

Okay it’s 4.20pm already. Gotta walk back home soon or else it’ll be too cold.

Till then, see ya peeps!

 

 

 

 

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Jun 29 14

My first working experience in a café here

by melmonica

Warning: This post is wordy. Blogging from WordPress app. But if you managed to read it through then you get to pick a topic of my next post!

So I just went for a trial for a job at a café. The experience was… let’s just say overwhelming.

My trial started at 10.30am and Analyss (duno how to spell her name), the supervisor brought me to the coffee machine and said, “OK show me what you got.”

And I’m like, “Wait a minute. This coffee machine is totally different from the one I’m used to so can you show me how to use it?”

She did some demonstration. Extremely fast. I tried to catch as much as I can. The way she steamed the milk is totally different than how we did it in Starbucks MY. Then she started telling me red cups are for flat white and cappuccino, white cups are for latte and mocha. Then she started on the recipe.

At that time, I felt like wow I’ve been pampered in Starbucks MY. On my 1st 2 days at work I just need to wash the cups and bus the tables. 3rd day they’ll sit you down with a book and teach you the Frappuccino recipe. Once you get a hang of that then they’ll teach you the hot drinks session. And lastly the till and food section. All these training took approximately 3 weeks. And you have the privilege of someone explaining it to you in detail and answer whatever shit questions (usually shit questions are from me lah haha)

But here they expect you to jump in and perform. Which to be honest, is a little difficult for me considering Starbucks has such a good training system. Everything was organized and systematic. The café here is a bit more lenient measurement wise but that may cause inconsistency in the drinks, no?

In Starbucks the recipe was detailed down to how many pumps and spoons used for every size of a cup. Just now when I saw the barista pour syrup without any measurement I was alarmed! Like hah so cincai 1 ah?

After feeling a little more confident, I jumped in and started helping out. When I did my first drink, she served it to the customer. I was a little uneasy coz back then a trainee does not send her cofffee out on her first try. In Starbucks it’s all about quality consistency. But after that she didn’t let me send out any more so phew.

The steps.

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So first off I had to grind the coffee beans. Then I had to compact the coffee into that holder thing.

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Next fix the holder (the most fucking difficult thing to do) and wait for the timer. Perfect shot here is 28-33 sec as opposed to Starbucks which is 18-23 sec.

Then comes the steaming milk. Here, they manually stop it when the temperature hits 70°c where as in Sbux it auto stops. And we never leave our espresso shot unattended (max 10 sec) but here you can leave for max 10 mins *cringed* So so different lor the system. It will definitely take me some time to reset and get used to the new system but Starbucks system is all about efficiency and cost saving.

By the end of my trial I knew I wouldn’t get the job. I told the lao ban nian about all these differences and she said that she couldn’t give me the job on the spot. If I want, I could come in for a one-week trial (note: unpaid) and then they shall decide on it.

I wanted to die at the moment. I had so much confidence going in this morning. But I was placed in a totally different machine, setting and system so everything is kinda jumbled up.

I told her that I’ll think about it and promise to email her about my decision. Well, I don’t mind trying la since I don’t have other commitment with any job also but at the same time I wana apply for Starbucks here.

I had this plan of giving myself 5 years to be a Starbucks manager then apply for PR. Coz if I work in independent café businesses the highest I can progress is only at supervisor level.

Le sigh. I feel so dejected. Scared actually. Like what if my trial at Starbucks ended up the same. I know it is pointless to worry about uncertainty but this is (another) reality check for me.

All I can hope is that the Starbucks here has a similar system to the one in MY.

As I was walking to the libary, I couldn’t help but wonder why did I choose this path? Why can’t I get an advertising job which I love and good at in MY. An office job is definitely easier than working in F&B right!

Cannot la cannot. Cannot let myself feel down because of one negative experience. Should turn the negativity into positive – see it as a new challenge.

But at this time and age I just wana excel at the things I’m good at already. A bit tired of starting from scratch. Well, I shall allow myself some wallowing today and tomorrow I’ll apply with Sbux.

Please please please wish me luck. I really need to get a job asap or else I can’t save up enough $$ to go back for Bra’s wedding next year T3T

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Jun 26 14

False Advertising

by melmonica

 

Haha the title has nothing to do with this movie.

I was beyond ecstatic that the local cinema is playing TFIOS. Watched in on Tuesday with my heart filled with pre-warmth fluff.

I was kinda nervous to watch a movie which i know so well (read it 3 times) and i usually don’t like predictable kinda movie. As i waited for it to begin, i was conflicted with excitement and hesitance if the movie will disappoint.

My verdict: A simplified version of the book. The movie left a lot of details out. But anyway, it’s fine for me la. It’s impossible to encapsulate the whole book in 120 minutes. So the movie plays more on the emotional part of the story i.e. Gus & Hazel love story and Gus’ death.

I practically cried from the time Gus told Hazel about his cancer returned till the end of the movie. I’m glad that my neighbour stranger also cried. So is the girl sitting in front of me. I’m not the only one!!!

Watching the movie makes me wana reread the book again. I wana relive the memories again.

Apart from watching a good movie, my day quickly turned for the worst.

I used to believe that honesty and communication are vital elements in a successful relationship. But last night i was slapped with the cold, hard truth.

For effective communication to take place, both parties have to agree on being a listener when the other person speaks. And by being a listener, i mean understanding what the other party is saying and going through. It is futile if one listens with judgmental and defensive mindset. Because by being defensive, you are automatically closing all genuine attempts to solve a problem.

“Someone should design a sign that says, “Leave your shoes, EGO AND SARCASM at the DOOR.”

Well, if you wana achieve effective communication then that’s the way to go, no?

 

One of the biggest shock i’ve experienced is how nice a person can be when the world is a wonderland and how fast it can flip 180 when the world is upside down.

My point is a lot of people tend to make promises when they are happy or in a pursuit of happiness. They promise to go through everything with you. Promise to be with you. Never to leave your side especially in the time of distress. You know the words.

But when it happens, they are nowhere to be found.

I hate broken promises. It makes me lose respect of you as a person. The trust built is gone and it’s just so disappointing especially coming from the person who you care a lot.

I trusted you by opening up and placing my heart in your hand. I trust that you are responsible enough to take good care of it. But when you walk out on me during our half-civilized conversation, it is disheartening. Heartbreaking. It’s like being stabbed in the stomach. So hurtful. So so painful.

“If you could not accept me during my worst, then what makes you deserve my best?”

 

As of now, i’m at lost of how to move forward. I am terribly afraid of getting my heart broken. But I AM determined not to let myself be hurt again. Putting up a protective gear in front of my heart now. Thanks for the reality check.

 

PS: Maybe this shall be a guide for me.

 

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Jun 15 14

I’m 28 ahhhh

by melmonica

 

Hi guys! I just celebrated birthday a couple of days ago. And it coincide with World Cup 2014.

Was supposed to go to Brazil to support Iker Casillas coz it might be his last WC >.<

Anyway, sayang organized a 2-days celebration for my bday :)

 

In the morning we had breakfast at Jagz café, Windsor. I had the most amazing and satisfying omelette here last year. Do enjoy some not-so-enticing pictures of our food.

My hot chocolate.

It looked totally different from the one I had last year. This time they reduced the amount of marshmallow on my hot choc. Taste wise, heavenly as always.

 

Sayang’s pancake. $14.90

Poor boy was sick since Sunday and he doesn’t wana take eggs. But y’know ang moh de breakfast right? It’s all about eggs. The next best thing (almost) without eggs are pancakes.

 

My omelette. $16.90

Honestly, it doesn’t taste as satisfying as I remembered. But then again, there are a number of factors that might contributed to the satisfaction last year. Like how I was a hungry backpacker thus any food placed in front of me will taste good.

 

After our very da heavy brunch, we went to do grocery. As promised, Ozias will do the cooking woohoo! I had the option of eating out but sayang’s cooking beats outside food anytime. I told him about my ‘likes’ and cravings and was expecting him to make hot pot for me. Techinically, hot pot isn’t exactly cooking but I was craving for it so I thought he’ll get the hint.

Then he told me he’s gonna cook western food cuz he seldom cook western food for me. So I immediately thought okay maybe it will be steak or something. Typical western food right? Then on Tues night I decided to ask him for the menu. And he explained that it’s a 4 course dinner – 2 entrees, 1 main, 1 soup and 1 dessert.

After shopping, we dropped the stuffs at home, tapau-ed KFC and headed to Oreti beach.

The beach is pretty deserted. Well, no person in his right mind will go to the beach to play. We parked right in front of the sun and enjoyed the quiet embrace.

The magnificent sunset. I kept sighing at its beauty. Braced the cold to take pics of this couple walking on the beach with their dog.

Back home, the boy scrambled to prepare my dins! This is him getting all agitated coz the supermarket staffs did not de-bone and de-skin the salmon. And we paid a freakin’ $26/kg.

 

After shower, I was prepared for my first course.

5 roses of salmon sashimi.

Oh gawd this taste so good! The soft sashimi melt in your mouth. I like mixing it with wasabi for the kick. After 3rd rose I was kinda full already but our motto is never waste food wtf.

Salmon and avocado salada.

This was really good as well. Sayang so smart mix the wasabi with mayo for a little tinge of kick. Salmon and avocado are my fav food so obviously I was going to enjoy this. Until I got a little jelak >.< And to think that we have 3 more courses to go, it kinda demotivate me a little.

Salmon + Broccoli baked rice.

Come I show you the picture before it went into the oven.

So sinful right? Sigh, goodbye 2 weeks of effort. I have trained my body to eat smaller portion (60% full) and this is more than what my body can take. Ozias kept pacifying me by saying your birthday mah… don’t think too much. Just eat. Well, the reason why I kept eating is because I don’t want to waste food (and his effort)

At this point, we were too stuffed already. Didn’t really finish this also. Cheese + rice is too much for me. Next time sayang, portion control ya. Muacks.

 

After that we just sat and waited till 12 midnight wtf. Too full to move, too full to do anything. And I was kinda tired from all the eating. When the clock struck 12, he brought out my cheesecake.

Lemon and Lime Swirl Cheesecake. About $25.

The sad thing about celebrating your birthday in a desolate place is your birthday cake is not freshly made. It’s frozen. I KNOW!!! I’ve never seen a frozen birthday cake, let alone eat it!! It’s not Ozias’ fault for this. He searched high and low for freshly baked cheesecake and there is none. Y’know even the supermarket sells frozen cake. The bakery here do not do order-to-go. Le sigh.

Anyway, I had a very tiny piece of cake only. Really bummed that my Projek Jaga Badan effort has gone down the drain.

Ended the night with a bottle of Moscato. Super love this! Its sweet, crisp taste is the perfect ending to a sumptuous meal.

The next day, we woke up early for a day trip to Dunedin!

Sayang was still sick so I took over the wheels. Felt kinda scared to be driving coz the speed limit here is 100km/h on a motorway (highway) and 50km/h in the town. Yeah, every town that you pass by you have to slow down to 50km/h. To me that is a pretty difficult to do since I drive like a sakai in Malaysia hahaha.

Our first stop is this dimsum place called The Golden Harvest restaurant.

I’ve actually lowered my expectation but they still managed to disappoint me wtf.

Disgusting custard bun and prawn dumpling.

We ordered 9 dishes and the bill came to a total of $55. So wasted considering it is all frozen and not freshly made. If frozen I also can buy them from the Asian store and steam them myself la aih.

 

After that we walked our fats off doing girls’ fav exercise – shopping! Bought slutty panties and some long sleeves top from Cotton On. No picture of my loot coz it’s for Ozias’ viewing pleasure wtf.

 

Our day in Dunedin is so productive. Had bubble milk tea (original of course) from Chopstick 101.

That is not our car.

Bought gigantic onigiri for only $3.50.

Stock up on Asian food and visited the art gallery. This is a Lego exhibition.

The hubs trying to continue someone’s creation.

Walked up to Baldwin Street, the steepest street in the world.

Attempting a selfie. Take 1. Super blur.

Take 2. Cannot see leg wtf.

Take 3. Perfecto!

 

I was ready to go home but Ozias’ want to have dinner in Dunedin. So we went back to Chopstick 101 coz the restaurant looks pretty promising.

Sayang de fish tofu rice with gravy for $12.

My spicy beef hotpot for $16.

OMG this is the bomb! I almost forgotten how authentic spicy food taste so good. The best thing about this dish is they use the chili flakes from chili pan mee. A surefire to spicy-dom wtf. Ideally, this dish is for 2 person to share but we have no portion control wtf. Once again, we ended the night with a very buncit tummy.

We sadly left Dunedin at 7.40pm and arrived home 3 hours later. I enjoyed myself really much and I missed being surrounded by stylish young people. There’s so much to do and eat (Korean and Japanese restaurant at every corner of the street) a day trip is really not enough. Perhaps many months later, sayang?

I am really thankful to be celebrating my birthday with my sayang. Being with him is the highlight of my birthday, it’s the icing on the cake. I’m already thinking of ideas to celebrate his birthday. I gotta do something that’s equally special and meaningful to him. Unfortunately, I can’t do anything OTT this year coz I’m kinda broke haha. But 2 years later sayang you have a surprise coming up. You better be prepared ya!

 

 

 

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Jun 9 14

Easy Exercise Regime for Lazy People

by melmonica

 

Hello people! How was your weekend? Mine was horribly boring. As usual. No surprises.

Anyway, to spice things up a little at home i created an easy exercise regime for myself (easy coz i’m lazy).

 

Mission: To have flat abs by bikini season –> December

See i give myself plenty of time to achieve that. No unreasonable target means mission possible!

 

3 2x 60s planking

3 2x 60 45s leg lift (my fav! can feel my lower abdomen burn)

3 2x 15 sit ups

3 2x 15 10 bicycle crunches (this is also my fav!)

3 2x 15s side planking (my least fav coz i can’t feel anything burning wtf. plus not sure if my position is correct anot. any tips?)

3 2x 15 squats (my fav coz i can do it while watching series #multitasker)

 

Gonna add  another exercise which is the hip raise. Looks doable :)

 

The target is to do this 3 times a day at every 3 hours interval. 9am, 12 noon, 3pm/ 12pm, 3pm, 6pm/ 3pm, 6pm, 9pm. Time scheduled depending on what time i wake up and feeling wtf.

Woah like very ambitious hor? But so far i’ve only managed to do it 2x a day and instead of 3 sets i only did 2 #shameful. In my defence, i don’t want to work my abs too hard excuses. But from now onwards must complete all 3 sets!

I have something embarassing to admit – after every exercise i will lift up my shirt to look at my fatty abdomen. To see whether got effect anot wtf. Well, result is the only motivation factor for me. But so far i can feel that my abs feel a bit firm (i may be delusional). My body also feels less bloated and lethargic.

I think the best way to see the result is to take a before and after picture at the end of every month!

Then when the weather gets warmer (read: Oct/Nov) I will attempt to start running/ cycling. Not sure how i will fare on this so i will set my target when the time comes.

 

Tips: I read that it is good to exercise before your breakfast so that your workout will ‘eat out’ all your fats wtf. And i have stopped myself from taking 3 large meals a day. Cutting it to only 1 meal (dinner with the bf) and healthy snacks throughout the day i.e. cereals, fruits, yogurt, baked chicken and instant noodle. Okay la last one not very healthy *shifty eyes*

 

On a totally unrelated note, i checked out Google Analytics on my blog today. Yeah, i perasan i got a lot of readers wtf.

My readership’s countries wtf.

 

After Malaysia, the second highest is from NZ. Well, it could be me who constantly visit my own blog to see if got people comment anot wtf.

3rd highest is US! Hello US reader! Who are you? Can you give me a hola?

4th highest is SG! I didn’t know i have Singaporean readers. Who are you? Are you Pat Chong or my Malaysian friend, Chang Yew Sheng? Come intro yourself pls *curious*

Next is Indonesia! Hello Christine are you reading?

And this is the city breakdown. Okay the other day i saw that i have more Singaporean readers than Ipoh and George Town. But now it’s the opposite. So hello Ipoh peeps and Penang lang! I really wana know who reads my blog. I don’t want to be talking to myself on this blog. I’m already alone most of the time (i only get to see the bf 4 hours/day) and i’ll take any form of communication from whoever!

So if i mentioned you correctly, pls write me a comment. And if i’m not, then pls reveal yourself. I wanna be friends wtf. No, honestly, i don’t have ANY FRIENDS AT ALL HERE. i am one sad loser case la haha. Totally opposite from my life back in Malaysia.

 

Anyway, it’s a brand new week! Gonna start reading again to keep myself occupied. Reading has the illusion of making time pass faster. I have 5 books to go. Wish me luck!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Jun 6 14

His Cooking Diary

by melmonica

 

Yay, it’s Friday again! Which means it’s library time!!

Somehow the time spent catching up on blogs are shorter now coz i’ve been using up my mobile data reading up y’all! FYI, my data left 79MB only and i still have 21 days to go before my next topup.

6th day into my second winter. So far it has been a-okay. The weather is still bearable. Sayang said July-August are the coldest months. Bracing myself for the unimaginable cold weather ahead >.<

See what the cold did to my finger the other day! My 2nd, 4th and 5th fingers are all swollen. They looked like friggin Vienna sausages! They only shrinked to normal finger size if there’s hot water i.e. shower time.

 

Okay back to the real deal of this post.

Few days ago i had this hankering of eating pineapple. Went to check ‘em out  at the local supermarket and it’s $4.50/each. Why so exxy one :( But le bf thought it’s okay to splurge on fruits so ta-dah! My own personal pemotong nanas hahahaha!

Man in kitchen. So sexay!

I vaguely remembered back in Motueka, he was skinning the pineapples for his friends and all the guys just stood around him with so much awe. I on the other hand, left the room unimpressed lol. Fastforward 1.5 years later whenever he’s in the kitchen, i now watch him in awe hahaha.

I’ve never shared with you all the glorious food that he cooked before right. So brace yourself people! Happy feasting with your eyes!

This is DA BOMB DIGGITY!

Ingredients used:-

1x flounder

Lotsa garlic + 1 x red chilli (minced)

A little bit of lemon

 

How to:-

1. Stir fry the minced garlic & red chili

2. Prepare the fish on aluminium foil (as pictured)

3. Pour the minced garlic & red chilli mixture on top of the fish. Spread them evenly.

4. Squeeze a bit of lemon on your fish.

5. Wrap them up and steam it at 200`c for 25 minutes.

 

Once it is done, just embrace yourself with the most fragrant smell in the world <3

 

This is kung pao chicken with cashew nuts and runny yolk.

So yums i tell you! I super love cashew nuts + runny yolk. Perfect combination! I wana have this again, sayang. Can? *hopeful eyes*

Stir fry vege + BKT!!

So homey & good <3

This is umm… stir fry vege and chicken i think? Sorry i’m not really good at describing food especially Asian food.

This is ginger shallot chicken. Also super yums omg i’m regretting writing this post with an empty stomach T3T

This pic goes way back. Beancurb soup with seaweed, corned beef + cucumber (i think) and red bean.

Ladies and gentleman, lemme present you the most expensive piece of tofu we’ve ever bought. Costing at a friggin’ $5.00!! I super love tofu but i gotta break up with you. You’re too expensive high maintenance edi.

Us while waiting for our pizza at Domino’s.

Super good hair day + loving the colour. I miss my hairdresser in Malaysia!!! :(

And this is us acting ghetto with indoor snowflake wtf.

 

On another note, I have been bugging sayang to tell me what we’ll be doing on my birthday next week.

Me: Sayang, what are you cooking for my birthday next week?

Him: Instant noodle.

Me: Cool! Can i have instant noodle with cheese + all the ingredients you can get in steamboat like fish ball, crab sticks etc.

Him: *ignore*

 

Few days later.

Me: Can i have cake as well?

Him: *ignore*

Me: Are you going to cook for me on Tues during your day off or are you going to postpone your day off to Thursday (my birthday)

Him: Next Monday night you will know la.

Frustrating laa i tell you. Cannot get anything out of him! I’ve already told him not to do anything for me coz i only want his cooking + cake for my bday. But why can’t he be honest about what he’s going to cook!!! Not like there’s a lot of Asian food supplies in Invercargill also.

 

Here’s how he annoys me.

Me: *while brushing teeth*

Him: *hugs me and whisper* Will you marry me?

Me: *toothbrush in mouth* Huh?

Him: *repeat* Will you marry me?

Me: *laugh*

 

While we were chilling in the living room.

Him: *while looking at me straight in the eye* Sayang, will you marry me?

Me: Again?!

Him: What again?

Me: Yala why you always play with this kinda question 1?

Him: Who says i’m playing?

Me: You’re not being serious also!

Him: So how is it consider being serious?

Me: Y’know the ring and bending down on one knee.

Him: So if i bend down on my knee now consider serious?

Me: No ring also so not counted!

 

What is this la guys. I know it won’t happen anytime soon thus why is he fishing for reaction. So not fun okay. Give me expectation only. And with expectation leads to disappointment. Le sigh :(

 

 

 

 

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May 30 14

Uneventful time & place

by melmonica

 

It’s gonna be winter soon! People starting to wear their stylish thick jacket and boots out. Unfortunately because i don’t wear those items in Malaysia thus my #ootd staple will be this. Well, at least until November.

The only stylish thing about the outfit is my hat. It was an early birthday gift from the bf because i told him not to buy presents for me but instead looking forward to his cooking :)

As i’m writing it’s almost 2pm here. Bad day to come to the library cuz it’s raining outside. Nowadays i’ll stay in the library until 4pm because the sun sets around 5pm and it takes me 45 minutes for me to walk home. Don’t wana walk in the dark + cold >.<

Also during winter time, it is a little difficult to do some cycling because of the cold wind. OMG the other day i cycled home from the library i almost wanted to give up due to the wind. I know i am rather unfit now. I don’t know who wanted to cry more – myself or my legs wtf.

Anyway, since i AM unfit (collected flabs of unsightly belly fats) and it’s too cold to work out outside the house, i am resolving to cutting down on my carbs and junk food.

No more french fries/ snacks/ biscuits on my grocery list.

More vege/ fruits. Usually fruits coz i don’t know how to cook vege wtf.

Attempt to exercize when i feel like it (too realistic and not enough motivation/ ambition?)

But sometimes the bf unintentionally spoil my diet plan by buying bread. Well, i know he is being sweet by not letting me go hungry. I’ve cut down on my meal tremendously only eating one proper meal a day which is dinner. Coz that’s the only time we have meals together. On normal days i’ll have cereals for lunch and snack on fruits and yogurts then 10pm for dinner. Not the best diet plan but i have to lessen my food intake coz i’m too lazy to exercize

Also i realized that i snack less when i’m on the internet. Just something to keep me distracted since i got no TV and sometimes too tired to read wtf.

 

// It is so fascinating to see stylish old woman during winter. I am ashamed that they are more stylish than me. Well, the sucky part is for winter i only have 1 wool turtleneck long sleeve top which i’ve turned it into my pajamas staple and 2x long sleeves top for outing. And just my sad looking sports shoe to (not) keep me warm.

Honestly, my outfit is so tak boleh pakai during winter time. The only thing i have is my trusty Kathmandu winter jacket (thanks baby!)

I am soooooooooooo nooooottttttttttttttttt loooooooookingggggggggggg forwarddddddddddd toooooooo winterrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Omg just saw another stylish person wearing boots in front of me. Why you so stylish!!! Why am i not stylish!!!

Feeling a little lightheaded. Don’t know because i’ve been facing the comp/ phone for a long time. I hate having to rush my online time. Like i have to rush through my reading (and blogging) thus i apologize for the uninspiring nonsense.

Ok la to more interesting story wtf.

Few weeks ago Ozias’ sis came to visit! I think i was more excited than him because yay to companionship!

Playing tour guide in a city that i hardly explore is quite stressful. So i brought them to the #1 place that every one goes to here. Bluff wtf.

It is compulsory to take pics with this tiang. I took one at the most northern point and southern point in NZ. #tourist

Catherine was so happy to see the seaside because she lives in the mountain haha. No la, she works in Mount Cook so she’s literally surrounded by mountains.

Christine wanted to do some shopping so we drove back to the city center only to find that everything is close. Every shops and cafes are closed at 5pm on a feaking Saturday.

Feel so bad that they are not having a good time. So we walked around to window shop at closed shop :(

The only thing that is still open is Starbucks and a nice cafe called Zookeepers. We opt for the latter. The girls were more touristy than me and started taking pics of the interior and pose here and there. Whereas i’m only interested in food #typical

My long macchiato with caramel. The coffee is so fragrant (and tiny) and i almost sipped it all at once.

This is sort of chocolate lava cake with chewy caramel and chocolate bars in it. So sinful but don’t care la. #dietmehla

The next day we had a hearty breakfast and went to the Queen’s Park for a walk.

The bro and the lil sis.

My fav pics of ‘em.

Us 4!

<3

Oh gawd. Looking at the pics makes me realize how alone i am in this city. Other than the bf, i have basically no friends here wtf. Kinda miss staying with some random backpackers albeit no privacy and dirty living situation.

There was once i was walking home from the library and this guy started chatting me up. He’s a student here and was studying journalism. I had a great talk with him and was contemplated to ask for his number (just to expand my social circle) but i was too chicken. To my defense, i didn’t want him to think that i was hitting on him. And up until now now i’m still friendless :( Should have, could have, would have.

Now almost 4pm and i am kinda hungry. Kinda wish i don’t have to walk in the rain. But oh well :(

 

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