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Oct 13 14

I’m turning into an auntie/ grandma

by melmonica


Hello people! How are you doing? It’s a superbly sunny day so imma let my legs hang out for awhile i.e. wearing shorts & flip flop. Feels so liberating!

Yesterday my colleague asked me how did i spent my Saturday night. My replied was, “Reading away.” Then she told me that she went bar hopping and was immensely drunk. She was nursing a terrible hungover at work. Something which i fail to comprehend because… i’ve never been drunk before wtf.

When i was younger (early 20s wtf) whenever my friends and i went clubbing, i would order Pepsi/ Sprite (wtf so loser). In my defense, i know what i am capable of doing without being drunk, so i wouldn’t wana explore the side of me which i have no control of. Sumore whenever my girlfriends and i went clubbing i felt like the “responsible” one but not necessary the most “innocent” one *wink wink*.

But those days are over. My social life here is practically non-existent and sometimes i envy the “younger me”. Always so full of life. Foursquare was my fav app cos i like to show off how happening i was *shallow*. But now i uninstalled the app already coz i’ve become more boring conservative and don’t want my private life to be public wtf. Who am i kidding right i have a blog wtf.


Anyway the reason why i think i am such an auntie/ grandma is I realized i get worried over petty things. When i was cycling to the library, i had this sudden pang of uneasiness. Although today’s temperature is 26c but the wind was blowing… for a lack of better word… like anybody’s business wtf. Ok according to metservice, the wind was blowing at 35km/h. So you get the idea. And i was worried about my laundry rail topple wtf. It is a normal incident then i felt stupid like why i didn’t think of keeping it at home. Oh yeah, coz it’s super sunny and my laundry deserves some day out wtf. Plus good days like this is hard to come by.

Case in point.

Zzz what is this la! Where’s my spring!

Ok Spotify is playing this song which made me angry. Angry coz why is Britney encouraging us girls to make the guys happy? Why does our sole purpose in this world is to make your other half happy? Isn’t that very selfish and one-sided?

For some reason, this song bothered me very much. One of the mistakes that i did is to be at my partner’s needs and wants 24/7. Due to my employment status for 7 months, i was being too available for him. I was practically at his feet ready to serve and make home as comfortable as possible because he was the sole breadwinner thus it only makes sense that i manage all domestic duties. While it was great, i have unintentionally spoil him. Now that i have a job (although i earn way lesser than him) but i see our relationship as an equal partnership. Now that whenever i have demands/ wishes for something, it will be ignored with no importance (and sometimes laughed at *hurt*). Mind you, my requests are usually more of an emotional one, not the material type.

I’m hurt that my love and the sacrifices i made for being with him are not reciprocated. Based on our previous arguments, I now know better not to bring up whatever issues that are bothering me coz telling him will only make things worst.

Haih feel like crying now because i am angry. I am helpless. I can not do anything to make myself feel better. And also, i’m tired of being my own cheerleader. So tired of being strong. Dislike the feeling of being alone in this relationship. So tired of uncertainty too. So tired of sleeping my unhappiness away. And wake up the next day feeling even worst. And disgusted. Like i’ve just wasted a day of my life feeling miserable.


Dear friends who are reading this, can you guys please say something? I need all the emotional support that i can get.


No social life.

No support system.

Barely any entertainment in this city.

With limited good (and cheap) Asian food.


Sometimes i am amazed with myself how did i manage to live with none of the necessities mentioned.

Ending this post with this song. So apt.

Irregardless of what i’m feeling, i hope you guys have a great week ahead *hugs tight*

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Sep 30 14

How to wear a Bodycon Dress

by melmonica


Hey you! Temperature is slowly rising in the southern hemisphere and I’m so excited to see everyone is dressing lesser by the day. I’m in my shorts, long sleeve tee and boots (regret that I still cover up but I had to since imma return home late tonight). No pics of my #ootd coz my phone is dead argh! And I’m too lazy to get it fixed wtf.

Anyway, pertaining to today’s blog title I’m so excited to show a little skin (like finally, goodbye polar vortex).  Here’s my first fashion guide to wearing one of my fav clothing item – a bodycon dress.


#1 – Accessorize

Bodycon dress is such a fun outfit to wear. It’s my showstopper outfit whenever I hit the club.

This is me in a bodycon dress paired with a pair killer high heels (not shown) and a chocker necklace. The body hugging clothing will accentuate your curves and the high heels will definitely make you look leaner. Of course, you gotta be confident to wear it but if you know you look smoking hot, why find excuses to belittle yourself?


#2 – Layer up

Layer your bodycon dress with a cardigan and match it with a nice pair of boots. The outerwear does not only preps up your whole outfit but also helps cover the after-buffet bulging tummy fats with ease.

Full disclosure: I have bulging tummy problems every time after I have my meal so this will come in handy!

A trick to achieve a slimmer looking silhouette is to select a simple bodycon dresses with darker colours and pair it with a fun cardigan and fedora for that edgy look.



#3 – Cover down

Ladies, if you don’t feel like showing too much skin but still wana look sexy and fabulous, you can opt for a cropped jacket or wear a pair of black thighs for the complete refined appearance. As oppose to the previous style, for this you should select a crazy fun/ printed bodycon dress to wear as it will pop out your outfit. Besides, the black thighs will help make your legs look slimmer and toned.



If you’re wondering where to get a bodycon dress for every occasion and mood, just head on to ZALORA online! Psst. it has free delivery for purchases over RM75 (only applicable in Malaysia). Don’t say I didn’t share ya. Happy shopping, ladies :)




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Sep 30 14

Meet the new Sandwich Artist

by melmonica


Hello peeps! How are you guys doing? As the temperature drops in the northern hemisphere, it’s about time the southern hemisphere residents enjoy our much needed sunshine yo!


As much as i’m lovin’ the sunshine, i also love my personal space. A massive throng of people are everywhere. I think i am at peace in my anti-social state of mind. Not a very good impression in my new workplace. Oh yes, i finally have a job!! Like after countless of applications sent, hours of straining my eyes on Trade Me Jobs website, the efforts are paid off. Although i wouldn’t wana take it for granted. Seems like during the slow season (read: winter) my hours may be cut drastically. Nah, it’s not something my boss mentioned, just a thought out of observation.


Anyway, i’ve been working for 2 weeks now and so far so good! Though my speed may not be up-to-par but i’m trying to stay cool and collected while trying to grasp a million things simultaneously. If you’re on my FB, you would have read some of my #SubwayStories. Okay la lemme copy & paste ‘em here for your convenience :)


Story #1

Customer: Where are you from?
Me: Malaysia. Are you from Malaysia too?
Customer: No, I’m from Africa.
*awkward *
Me: *cover line* Oh you look like you know a lot about Malaysia so I thought you’re from there heheh.

Why I so mengsiasuikan 1.

2nd scenario is about this hot guy with super charming smile and eyes. I got too excited until I squeeze his bread too hard. Sorry!


Story #2

Customer: Where are you from?
(Loving the attention of being the foreign & exotic one)
Me: Malaysia 
Customer: Yeah, I figured you’re either from Malaysia or Indonesia.
Me: Have you been to Malaysia?
Customer: No, I’ve only been to Jakarta.
Me: That’s nice. For work or leisure?
Customer: My dad is Dutch and he spent some time in Jakarta years ago and had some girlfriends. He said he might have some child there. So that’s why we were there.

Duno how to react and so I smiled like it’s no biggie. (Trying to act very open kononnya)


While working has been fun (at times) i kinda miss working at my own turf like in Starbucks Sitiawan. Just cuz it’s my hometown and thus my customers are my friends so it doesn’t feel like work. Feels more like a meetup sesh. But since i am 9,000km away from home, everyone are like strangers to me *cries*

But the other day, I made a new non-colleague friend! :D

I clearly remember this guy coz he gave me moral support on my first day of work. I think he saw me literally shaking while making his sandwich (hello, how can i feel comfortable while touching people’s food) And it was lunch rush hour so i lagi gancheong-ed. Anyway, he was really nice by saying, “You’re doing great”. I could feel my cheeks blush profusely and was at lost for words.


Then a couple of days ago, after i finished washing the Subway jamban, I spotted him as he was walking out. After exchanging the usual pleasantries, we talked more.

Customer: Hey how are you?

Me: Long time no see.

Customer: Yeah, so how are you getting along at work here?

Me: It has been great, actually.

Customer: Really? So, are you in Invercargill for a short while?

Me: Umm, not really.

Customer: So are you a student in SIT?

Me: Nope. I’m just here on a work visa.

Customer: Why don’t you study in SIT at the same time?

Me: (Laugh) Nah, i’m not keen on going back to study plus i have my degree from Malaysia already.

Customer: OMG you’re from Malaysia?!

Me: Yeah, why?

Customer: I love Malaysia. I’ve been there twice already. People there are so friendly.

(Honestly, every time a customer says this, i feel awkward. Should I say thanks? Technically the compliment is not directed to me cuz they are talking about their experience in Malaysia but I am a Malaysian living in NZ)

Me: So what are you doing here? Are you a local?

Customer: Yes, I worked in Warehouse (no wonder he looked so familiar) and next year i’m going to Auckland to study Bachelor Science of Something Something Something Zoology (embarrassingly, that’s the gist i got. the rest sound so scientific like words used in TBBT)

Me: Wow, sounds very smart.

Customer: (Laughs) i love working with animals hence zoology.

And then i quickly cut the conversation short coz i just don’t feel comfortable chatting during my working hours although i’m sure it is totally fine but… now i regretted not getting his name. But i’m pretty sure it’s either Timothy/ Benjamin/ Sebastian. Yeah all nerd names de. So there you go! A new friend with no name (yet)! Haha.


Argh thinking about work tomorrow is so zzz. My working hours is not fixed. Sometimes work 4,5 or 8 hours/ day. Tomorrow’s work will be for 5 hours only. So i can totally handle it! *thumbs up* (counting my wages for next week already)




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Sep 14 14

He turns 28!

by melmonica


Note: Wrote this earlier but didn’t have the chance to post it until now wtf. Ahhh the joy of NOT having home internet for almost 8 months. Thanks Vodafone & Chorus for the efficiency.


Happy 28th birthday sayang! Finally, you’re as old as me :P So sorry at this moment, I couldn’t throw you a kick-ass celebration. But wait… there are tones of surprises that will leave you screaming. Certainly not for the faint-hearted hehehe.


For now, I want to document my gratitude for you here <3

 1. I am thankful for your existence

Every morning, without fail I will say a little thanks to the universe for still keeping you by my side. My heart feels a little calmer listening to your soft breathing (sometimes that annoying snore :P ) next to me. To know that I (still) have the privilege to roll over and put my arms around you, to give you light kisses without waking you up, to bury my nose into your neck for a little scent addiction are some of the best things in life could offer. These are money-can’t-buy satisfaction that I will treasure very much. Life is short, relationships are fragile. Nothing last forever, so I’m going to hold on to you for as long as I can, love you as much as I can and treat every moment with you like it’s our last time together.


2. I am thankful that we are different yet the same in many ways

People say “Opposite attracts” and it couldn’t be truer. Our sense of music, fashion, hobbies and even weather preference (for the record, he’d rather endure winter for the entire year. Yuckkk) are totally different. And that is beautiful – to have a partner that is unique on his own, an opportunity for me to explore out of my comfort zone.

And I am thankful that our differences have taught us how to compromise, to accept each other for who we are (and not based on the image/ perception society impose)

I am thankful that I can share my passion for traveling with a partner who I hold so dearly. It’s funny to say this but… we do really complement each other, huh? (you know what I mean *wink*)


 3. I am thankful that I am the person that sends you off and welcome you home

One of my current daily routine is to see Ozias off when he leaves for work. It may sound cheesy but I do stand at the door, waving at him until his car leaves my sight, every day. And when he reaches home, I’ll welcome him with a hug and kiss and whisper “Welcome home, my love”. It’s just a small gesture to show him that I am happy that he’s home. And I want to be the one who makes him happy, hopefully for the rest of his life.


 4. I am grateful for you

Ever since you come into my life, you have changed the entire course of my life. All the plans I had about my life are now buried for good. I now don’t have to travel and appreciate life on my own. I have your companionship, your trust and love to anticipate and enjoy all the great things that life have to offer us together.

I am also grateful that ever since I live with you, I can proudly say that I have transformed from being a “domestic-challenged” person to a domestic goddess. Although, I am nowhere near an expert in the kitchen (I think I’ll leave that title to you :P ) but at least now I know how to differentiate between dark soy sauce and light soy sauce haha.


 5. Thank you for always being there for me, through my ups and downs

It is so easy to make promises and not fulfill ‘em but you stood by me timelessly. In this short 7 months of living together, we had grown more mature in the relationship. Although the hard times almost tore me apart but thank you for making the first step to mend the broken pieces. Thank you for swallowing your pride and patch things up together. Despite the countless argument, bad times and *ehem* bad breath, I would not trade these for the world. Remember, when the world turns its back on you, I’ll be by your side facing it all.


I know this post doesn’t mean a lot. It doesn’t come close to all the sweet things that you have done for me since the day we are together, but I hope that my words speak through your heart and this is only the beginning. Be prepared for a rollercoaster ride with me.


Love you, sayang <3



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Aug 15 14

Looking for snow, hello!

by melmonica

Ohai! I’m back. Have to update something here because the bf said, “I expect to see my face in your blog” during our trip at Queenstown. #tumpangglamourbf



So i feel very happening coz last week we drove for 3 hours to the east to Dunedin then this week drove 3 hours to the west to Queenstown.

Snow has been forecasted for the day so ok lah brave the snow for one last time before spring comes.


We left the house at 8.30am with a delicious finger-licking homemade breakfast by him. It was bacon and cheese sandwich flavoured with wasabi mayo. All my favourite in one <3


Then off we went to look for snow!

Halfway trough the journey, this welcomed us. Left, front magnificent view of the gorgeous snow-capped mountain.

Looking at this view from inside the car made me feel agitated. I don’t know why i have this unexplainable desire of eating snow. I assume it feels the same as eating icing sugar? Same right? Both also soft and white mah ;)

Magnificent view at Devil’s Staircase Lookout Point.

I asked sayang to sit on the rock and smile and in this pic he looks very ’round’ :P

Him: Eh, take one more lah. This time no smile one.

Me: *reluctantly obliged* Okayyyy…..


BAM! No smile for you.

Looking like a mafia, huh?


Next is my turn to have my picture taken.

Me: What? I don’t want to be the center of attention. I want the scenery to be the main focus point and i’m just on the side blending it. Like how i took for you.


So much better! At least my head didn’t ‘touch’ the mountain kan?

This is how we are when we are not fighting.

Sigh. So beautiful like a painting.

After feeling satisfied taking pics at every angle of the surroundings and in dire need of warmth and food, we quickly dashed off to the CBD.

This is how i check my makeup if it’s okay anot. For whatever reason, I don’t trust the image on my mirror. Prefer to trust a camera LOL.

And I also can’t believe I spent 5 minutes fixing my makeup before heading out. I don’t know since when i’ve become a vainpot.

Pork ribs & chips for $15 at Flame Bar and Grill. The maître d’ specifically mentioned that this is not a sharing course then he took my utensils away.

My verdict: Good sauce however the meat was tough. It made cutting difficult and my jaw was tired by the end of the meal. Will i come back for this? Definitely not. Nothing to shout about except that it’s worth it for a backpacker.

Then we walked the calories off at a park nearby.

More sighing and gushing at the beautiful scenery all around us. My first encounter with a snow-capped mountain was last year at Mount Cook. It was the most beautiful thing i’ve ever seen but i wouldn’t enjoy being in that surrounding. You should have known by now that i super hate the cold one.

Thankfully the sun came out and we indulged in a little bit of sunshine for a while.

Maybe too much of indulgence jor :P

A panoramic view of our surroundings.

More pics to make you jealous :P

Nah more for you.

We were so lucky that the weather was sunny. It was chilly at times but at least we get to wear our cheapo shades out.

This pic of us looks eerily similar. Head angle, smile. I dowan to look like him can anot?

Why Invercargill don’t have a lake as pretty as this one :(

Then we had a cuppa and chill in Vudu Cafe & Larder. I gotta rave about this. The drinks served were immaculately good. I ordered Mocha and the ratio balance between the coffee and cocoa was perfect. The coffee and cocoa aftertaste didn’t overpower but instead complement each other. Which got me addicted and before I left Queenstown, I tapau-ed another cup. I didn’t touch the drink until I reached home and by then it had already gone cold. Now usually, cold coffee means stale coffee and it doesn’t taste as good as a freshly brewed cup. But that’s not the case for this! I ended up liking it so much and was secretly hoping that sayang doesn’t want it so that i can have it all to myself. And after i finished the cup, i actually crave for another one. I guess the coffee must be really good or they put drugs to keep me addicted. Moreover, the price was relatively cheap. $4.50 for a regular cup (most cafe charge $5/cup)

This is definitely the best discovery in Queenstown <3

We went to Queenstown looking for snow but we were not lucky enough to see snowfall. Afraid that the road might be slippery so we went home early.

Otw back, it started snowing  and I was feeling in awe and bitter at the same time because I couldn’t experience the magical feeling of a snowfall. It was certainly frustrating and we couldn’t just stop by the roadside. It would be too dangerous (and idiotic). So this picture is the only remembrance I have of my (possibly) final snowfall. Aside from the angry mode, it was calming to see snowfall pelting gently. The bf put his hand out to feel it but I wasn’t crazy enough to let my hand freeze pls.


And so that pretty much summed up my day in Queenstown. Everything is expensive (tourist spot mah) but it was a nice change to walk in the park and sigh at Lake Wakatipu’s beauty.


The next day I had this post-holiday syndrome plus the weather in Invercargill didn’t help at all. It was the windiest city in NZ at 56km/h. Faster than the city’s speed limit sumore! Hrmph.



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Aug 9 14

Dunedin… just cuz

by melmonica


Hello I’m back with blog-worthy pictures and stories!

And this time back to Dunedin for a day! (Sky insisted on following us!)

The boy was very spontaneous. On the night before, he said he didn’t feel like cooking on his day off and want to get out of Invercargill. So we thought real hard of where to go.

The choices:-

- Dunedin (3 hours drive)

- Queenstown (3 hours drive)

- Catlins

- Arrowtown


We’ve been to the 1st 3 places so I suggested Arrowtown which is somewhere near Queenstown. After checking weather forecast for all 4 places (very essential for roadtrip), Dunedin has the best weather – sunny at 11c. Ok la onz!


Our first stop was Sichuan 88 for dimsum!

Oh glorious food, time to dig in!

The coriander dimsum (top) is delish! A must try!

The soft and super yums chee cheong fun. Wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better than the sad looking , depressing and blant one we had in Golden Harvest on my birthday.

Deep fried radish cake. So good with Kg Koh chili sauce but Thai chili sauce will do lah :)

Sichuan 88 is located at Mornington, a 10 minute drive from CBD. Total bill was $38.50 only. For the same amount of dish we had, this is much cheaper and yummier compared to the $60 we paid at Golden Harvest.

A satisfying start to our food adventure!


Next stop – St Clair Beach!

Clear blue sky + waves crashing + tight hugs = blissful day <3

Absurd paradox – Sunny yet cold.

Him: The nearest place is public toilet.

Me: Where? (looks around)

Him: Neh! *points up*




St Clair beach is a popular spot for surfers. And these are the ones who fed the great white shark.

Fire Shark Alarm

Once we’re done freezing our ass in the sun, we drove to the city.

Otw, we spot this nice lookout and stop for a pics.

Looking at this pics makes me miss the sunshine! (Invercargill’s weather was horrible the next day)

Slutting it out for a day!


When i first arrived NZ, i spent 2 weeks in Dunedin. Thus, I played tour guide! Brought the boy to all the tourist (and free) spots!

The Dunedin Railway Station.

Fun fact: It’s the 2nd most photographed place in the southern hemisphere (1st being Sydney Opera House)

Happy not sick boy acting cute! #takbolehtahan

Will you go aww….

My attempt to emulate the picture below…

Taken 2 years ago.


Look at the amount of clothes i wore!

My hair!

So nostalgic ahhhh.


More touristic pictures just cuz…

The entire time I was there I couldn’t help but to think of Sheldon from TBBT. His love for trains has permanently etched at the back of my head.


Ended the night with a sumptuous dinner and bubble milk tea at Chopstick 101.

Eggplant with BBQ pork in spicy sauce for $20.

Had roasted pork belly also but we were too quick to let our tummy dictate our actions. Before I could whip out my phone to photograph it for my viewing pleasure, we quickly gobbled them down. So fast until i almost made a mess and embarrassed myself.


2 weeks later will mark my 6 months stay in Invercargill and unfortunately, I have yet to meet other Malaysians (besides Ozias). So whenever we go to a bigger city like Dunedin or Queenstown, we’d curiously guessed if the person who walked past us is Malaysian or not.

In Chopstick 101, there are a couple of wait staffs who eerily looked like Malaysian. Not that Malaysian has a specific look but we can just feel it lol. Halfway through our dinner, the waiter came and asked, “You guys ordered the sweet and sour pork?” We, politely said no. And then sayang and i were like confirmed lah Malaysian! Only Malaysian will use the phrase “you guys”. And when I went to takeaway my bubble milk tea, I summoned my confidence and asked the waitress if she’s a Malaysian.

“Yes. I’m Malaysian. We’re all Malaysians” (points to the other waiters)

“Oh great! Me too!”

“Which part are you from?”

“I’m from Perak. You?”

“I’m from Sarawak.”

“Wow! Which part of Sarawak”

(Waitress giving me weird looks probably because of my nosiness) “Miri”

“Oh great! My dad is from Kuching. My dad’s Iban and mom’s Chinese”

“Wow so you’re mixed”

“Yeah. Why ah?”

“Oh coz earlier I thought you’re a Taiwanese”

*flattered* “Thanks!”


Don’t know which part of me that looks like a Taiwanese nor did I speak Mandarin to them.

And I went home feeling contented with my bubble milk tea, a day out with the boy with lots of love and yummy food in my tummy.






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Jul 27 14

How bizzare

by melmonica


Edit: Updated for more wtf.

Helloooooooooooo *wave*

I apologize for MIA. Was in a bad state of mind and i decided to take a break to focus on regaining my positivity.


Anyhoo, i’ve been attending interviews here and there and i reckon maybe part of why i didn’t get the job is because i don’t speak with an accent. Initially, sayang has a hint of Kiwi accent but now i help him to Malaysianize already hahaha. And this Wednesday I have a very, very important interview that I really wana excel in it. It’s an interview with the city council and it’s for a marketing position! *pops champagne*Aih, interview only la. Not like I bag the job already hrmph. SO excited when they called me and now i’m freaking out hoping that i do not screw it. So for these few days i gotta practise speaking with an accent but i don’t want to sound fake too. I hate people who speaks with a fake accent and now i’m turning into one wtf.


It’s slowly getting warmer. Yay! Can’t wait to ditch the winter wear and slip into something more carefree and light <3


Other than that, i have nothing more to report. Don’t think you guys wana know about the bizarre dreams that i’ve been having every night.

So my life is pretty much the same. Read a lot. Watch a lot. Eat even more.

I’m signing off now. So please please please wish me luck for my interview. I need tonnes of it.

Till then, BAI!




Okay, just remember this and it’s quite funny so must document it here wtf.

Last Wednesday, I went to the library. An uncle was sitting in my spot so ok fine. I resolved to this uncomfortable seat. But nevermind lah got powerpoint. Get your priorities right!

Was happily chatting with this Chai Soo Ai la then my tummy became a washing machine. Did some twisting and turning (it was the time of the month. and also first day wtf) Then suddenly i feel very hot. Don’t know if the library adjust the temp but the other patron look okay. I started fidgeting and my heart beats so fucking fast (never felt like this before so it was a pretty big deal for me).

So i text sayang to pick me up.

Usually i have a pretty high threshold for pain/ anything uncomfortable but i think enough is enough wtf.

I called sayang but he didn’t pick up.

Called him again but to no avail.

Somehow i quickly pack up my stuffs and dash out of the library to the hallway for some fresh air.

Still fidgeting and feeling uncomfortable. Change my seating position also doesn’t help.

Finally he’s here. Went into the car. Was sad that i had to cut my date with the internet short but also feeling glad that i’m not feeling stuffy anymore.

As he was driving, i felt dizzy. Then, I started gagging.

And i vomited my Burger King out (had that earlier). I was impressed that my aim is so accurate. I covered my mouth so i only vomit into both of my palms. But then i don’t think it is appropriate to hold that position until i reach home so i let it go and it piak between my legs wtf. My shoes are vomit-free.

Sayang stopped the car and continued letting me vomit on his car mat. Didn’t even offer me a plastic bag until i asked for it wtf.

And i must say, my puke smells quite good. Even the bf agree wtf.

After that i request for a kiss but he didn’t want to give me wtf. So much for for better or for worse.


In retrospect, it’s quite funny lah coz i don’t usually vomit unless it’s a really bad case of food poisoning.

Okay, library closing in 5 minutes. I sign out for real this time.

Have a great week ahead everyone! Bai!


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Jul 14 14

Done with One Week Trial

by melmonica


Yay, finally i’m done with it! *throws confetti* As much as i enjoyed the work experience, i am so glad to kick back and catch up on my sleep. #lazypig

So last week i accepted the 1 week work experience just cuz i’m too free. I started on Tuesday (8/7) and went in with an empty mind to absorb as much as i possibly can.

On the 1st 2 days i was assigned to dishes & runner.

Well, how hard could it get right? Wait till it’s lunch hour and kitchen closing time. It feels running in a never ending marathon. Working hours wise was fine. 10.30am – 4pm. 5.5 hours. Not too long lah. I can handle it de.

Back in Starbucks, doing the dishes was my fav thing to do. Coz i don’t need to layan customers & i get to layan my own thoughts. At one point, i asked myself why am i doing this? I have a Marketing degree and why am i washing dishes for a living? Oh right. Because i am greedy. Because i wasn’t contented with my life. See. Greedy lor. But i guess, in whatever you do in life, there is a starting point where you have to bust your ass harder than before. Keeping my fingers crossed for a better outcome >.<

Oh almost forget to mention! The bf made tang yuan for breakfast! Very filling and satisfied. And when i’m done for the day, he picked me up and we went to watch the sunset by the beach. Then he surprised me with a gift! A mitten from Glassons!

He bought this for me coz he’s scared that it’ll be too cold to walk home. And he’s proud that i’m on trial. Wah like that got present for my next interview and next trial ma? Also what about my first job here heheh. #spoilt

3rd & 4th day – Sandwich dept

I almost cried when i saw the working hours. 7am – 2pm. 7!! Freaking 7am?!!!!! I am not a morning person. Thus, i reluctantly set my alarm at 5.30am and forced my biological clock to shut down at 11pm. And do you think it happened? Of course not! I usually sleep at 2am so this was quite a struggle. In the end, i didn’t manage to sleep well for fear of oversleeping. Then on 2nd night i KO-ed at midnight and slept till 5.30am (achievement unlocked!). But after 2 nights of sleeping early/ waking up earlier i literally died after my shift. At 4.30pm the washing machine guy brought a new one for us (woohoo!). After he left i tried to go back to bed but i can’t. So just lay in bed for an hour before deciding to wash up. Then, i hid under the duvet, playing dead while listening to music. On and off i’d wake up to reply sayang’s text. At 9.10pm with eyes half-opened, i woke up then thought, “Okay. Still got 30 minutes before i need to start cooking for him”. Mana tau i slept till 10pm. Quickly apologize to the bf via text. Actually duno why i did that lor. Coz he’s most probably on his way home already. Half-asleep mind is super blur!

Usually, i’ll welcome him home but i was too exhausted to even leave the bed. Felt so guilty but luckily he’s understanding and even whipped out a quick dinner! Surprisingly, he let me eat it in bed. Was contemplated of asking him to feed me while i’m lying down but didn’t. Sat up and clumsily hold my bowl of fried noodles. So yums!

We chatted about our days but i was too tired to report wtf. So i fend him off by asking him to do the dishes or go shower so that i can get a quick nap while he’s out of the bedroom. But the moment he opened the door, my eyes are wide open and pretended to think about something deep. #butactuallyhalfasleep

We agreed to watch The Tourist but I ended up sleeping 15 mins later and woke up to him sleeping but the laptop was still on.

On Saturday, i spent my time lazing at home. After the bf left for work, i played Monopoly then slept for 2 hours straight! Can’t remember when was the last time i felt this tired! Oh, when i started working in Starbucks wtf. I remembered telling my colleague about the things i do after work and she said the same too. Her mom even commented, “Ko ni macam OKU la” Coz she’s always lying down on the couch/ bed after work. Yay, i’m not the only one!

Okay wrote a little too much on my sleeping habit. So work in the sandwich dept was AWESOME! I got to learn to make sandwiches, wraps and paninis HOMAIGOD it made me hungry all the time! And working in the kitchen is the same as what you watch on Top Chef. There were some experimentation on new food and we were the guinea pigs. And the pastry chef was very generous and gave me some fudge. Not helping with my expanding waistline! But being the Asian me, of cos i was secretly happy to indulge in free food! :D

Other than that, my sandwich partner-in-crime was incredibly friendly! She is so helpful and accommodating to all my silly questions. You know what? i feel that it’s okay for us Asian to ask any silly questions to our Westerners counterparts because of the culture and lifestyle differences and they wouldn’t be judgmental at all. Actually, i feel that Westerners are generally non-judgmental people la. It’s the Asian that are always so competitive and trying to do more to impress. Anyway, my point is i love asking stupid questions. Questions that doesn’t makes sense. Questions on topics that nobody thought of. Just silly, random ones. When i was young, i was no allowed to ask questions cos it is deemed rude (Asian upbringing). So i promised myself not to do that to my kids in the future. If i don’t know the answer to their questions, i will google together with them :) #winwin

On my last day, i worked as a barista for 4 short hours. It didn’t help that the day was a little busy thus i had no proper training and had to help the others out. But i was glad that i improved tremendously! Previously, my biggest struggle was to get handler hooked and making the perfect shot. Now i am proud to say that i got my technique right albeit slow. #practisemakesperfect

In the end, i didn’t get the job (as expected). They required an expert level barista while i was only starting to get the technique right. I may be slow but i watched the other barista, they are pretty inconsistent with their performance also. Even when their shots are not perfect they’d still serve the customer coz the line is too long.

So i was a little bummed that everything is over. Would do it again in a hearbeat! Love all the friendly peeps and the owner is one of the most humble person i’ve ever seen. Whenever my shift is over, he would personally thank me. I’m like, “Umm, i should thank you for the opportunity and experience.” The whole crew is so nice, i hope the business will flourish.


On another note, i have been keeping up with some of my best girlfriends about their lifes – wedding & pregnancy. It is so fun to talk to the topics that i have yet to experience. I’m a curious cat by nature so i’ll bombard them with tonnes of questions. I’m so happy that one of my girlfriends plans to get hitched next year. Hopefully it’ll be the same time when I’m back in MY. If not, i’ll be glad to help out with whatever she needs beforehand.

From time to time, i envision what my future wedding will be like and write it in a vision diary. I have a mental note of the things i want for my cake, decor, table setting, dress and thank you gifts. It’s so nice to let my imaginations run wild, planning on a small, intimate affair. On the downside, if i were to make all these ideas come true, it’ll be one expensive wedding! Coz most of them are custom made unless i DIY la!  Whatever la! At the moment, we have no time to be married bcoz we’re he’s too busy with work and saving money wtf.

I apologized for the wordy post. Didn’t take much picture for a while now. Tomorrow it’s his day off so hopefully i’ll remember to take some lah! Toodles!




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Jul 5 14

How 5.7.12 Changed My Life

by melmonica


Not a lot of people know this but today (5th July) holds a special day to me. It’s not my anniversary with Ozias, not my birthday nor his birthday, not anybody’s birthday for that matter. It is actually the day when I first stepped into New Zealand.

Why is this day special to me, you may ask? Because it’s the day that changes the entire course of my life. Had I not come to New Zealand, I would still be climbing the career ladder in McCann. Not that working in McCann is a bad thing; it’s just that life then is predictable. Work, eat, sleep, repeat.

How is it different living in NZ 2 years ago and now?

Then, I had a sum of money and free to roam around NZ wherever the job wind takes me to.

–> I first arrived in Christchurch

–> With no plans in mind, I went to Dunedin to visit Li Kee for 2 weeks

–> Then went back up to Akaroa where I was woofing (work in exchange of accommodation) for 2 weeks

–> And then to Blenheim for a job in the vineyard

All these happen in 1 month time which is quite cool la. I get to travel to a few cities and expand my social circle.


Now, I have close to no fund and I am restraint from travelling. This is because I am currently living with my partner thus by hook or by crook, I would need to get a job in this city. Cannot simply travel to another city even if there are more opportunities.


Somehow, i feel that it is easier to feel motivated during my WH. Back then i had no plan to migrate to NZ. I only thought of staying here for 9 months. When I know I have a limited amount of time to have fun here, i make the best of every situation, every moment, every second. 9 months is a very short time. I certainly don’t want to waste my time wallowing at all the bad things that happened to me. I can complain all i want but if i don’t take any actions to amend the situation, it will never change.

However, these days i find myself easily demotivated. Sadly, I am not as strong as before. I let complacency get the better out of me. I am such a lazy bum and a mess; it’s disgusting. I have to constantly myself that this is not the end of the world. Always have to kick myself up to stay positive and remember all the life lessons that i learnt during my NZWH.


How has my life changed after NZWH?

Honestly, the experience has been incredible; I just don’t know where to start.

On a personal level, I have grown into a mature young lady (if I may say so myself).  Some of the life lesson learnt during my solo traveling experience.

1)      Be confident

At your darkest hour, have a little faith that things will work out for you. Believe there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. Bad things happened for a reason – to make you a stronger person.

Remember, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger :)


2)      Be grateful

New Zealand is undeniably one of the most beautiful places in the world. One particular moment I will never forget was in Greymouth. It was the early part of my travels and at times I was daunted with fear. Not used to living alone. However, I told myself – You can either be scared for the whole time or you can face your fear and have the best trip of your life. So i challenged myself to go for a trek alone and it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I was rewarded with a gorgeous view at the lookout point.

While admiring the view, I spent the moment in silence. Oh how beautiful this place is. The soft crashes of the waves ease my troubles away. The calmness of the hollow wind made my heart feel at peace. I was lucky to be enjoying a view like this. So I thanked the universe for blessing me with a myriad of amazing opportunities and the beautiful life lessons that it imparted on me. Every single good things that happened to me makes me feel so grateful and makes me want to give it back to the world.

3)      You don’t know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have

My working holiday wasn’t all butterflies and rainbows. I had my fair share of misery. One of the toughest experience that I had to endure was working in the vineyard in the cold. Winter in Blenheim is about 0-1c in the morning and at that time you have to bust your ass and make some money. If you are slow, you will be asked to leave. I was called out a couple of times in front of my peers, I was humiliated and mocked at work and at home. Every single thing that I do was scrutinized under the microscope; I felt suffocated and cried myself to sleep a couple of times. But I proud that I managed to endure it all and come out stronger.

Every time I feel like giving up or feeling down, I will revisit those painful memories as those are the most difficult time of my life and I wish to never go through that sort of humiliation again.


I owe NZ for this brand new person that I am. I am now an ambitious person. I have targets in life that I want to achieve. I want to continue inspiring people through my blog. I want to improve my writing skills and reach out to a wider audience. I also wish that someday I’ll be able to own a business. From time to time, when I thought of an idea, I will quickly pen down in my diary. When i feel lost with no sense of direction, the diary will come in handy and serves as a reminder and motivation towards my goal.


I hope I did not bore you guys with my thoughts. I actually do not know who will read this but if someday, you are at a crossroads with life-changing junction looking at you, don’t be afraid to take the road not taken. Don’t be afraid to be out of your comfort zone. Trust me; complacency is the roadblock to success. Take risk. Indulge in fear. And at the darkest hour, you will emerge as your finest self.


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Jun 30 14

The Aftermath

by melmonica


Haha what an exaggeration.

Right now i’m feeling some ache on my arms for working to hard wtf.

Last night was pretty depressing. Once i reached home, i had no one to talk to. But thanks to technology i have my friends by my side <3

Special thanks to the group of 5 – Nem, Bra, Bavin & Yuha for keeping me sane and giving me the much-needed motivation to stay positive. So much of happy/ once-in-a-lifetime event happening at home and i’m not there to experience it :( So there is a compulsory trip home next year coz seriously how can i miss my best friend’s wedding right?!!! It is unacceptable! Bra has been my friend since 12, we used to cycle to the photo shop to photostat some assignments for our class then have ice cream at Fajar. I still remember Nasriq had mint ice cream that time lol.

Us (minus Bavin) during my 19th birthday celebration in Pangkor. OMGGGGG look at that hairstyles and dressing! LOL. And to think that half of the people here are married shows how far we’ve come through!

Deepavali 2009 with better hair and fashion :)

I super love this people. Really thankful to have them growing up with me. Part of who i am now is because of this awesome childhood friends. Wouldn’t wana trade the world for it.

They are one of the motivating factor for me to work hard, save up and go home next year!!

Also listing down some so that i’ll be excited enough to start writing my resume!!


1) Awesome food

Obviously. Delicious food that worth the calories. Craving for Village Park Nasi Lemak. My one first true love LOL.


2) Spending time with family & friends

- Wana fly to Kuching to be with my family and Kalung (pet dog).

So cuteeee righttttt? But lansi de wtf. Whenever i call him, he won’t choi me/ buat bodoh. But when i left Kuching, mom said he will go into my room and look for me. Stupid dog when i was there you dowan to sayang me but when i left only come find me aih. OK la not stupid la. Sayangs <3


- Bra’s wedding as mentioned. Die die also must go backkkk. If I had to get a 2nd job to fund my trip, I’ll do it!

Suddenly feel lazy to continue my list jor. I am so easily distracted. Or is it easily give up? I choose to believe the former haha.


OK lemme tell you about my friends who spent time making me feel better after yesterday’s event.


I was writing about my experience when i whatsapp Amir (my Starbucks supervisor) about the name of the coffee machine that we used. But he replied after i was done with the blogpost so i didn’t include it :/Then i told him about my experience with the trial. Telling him how demotivated i was. Like i was fucking useless and then he said he missed me. I was instantly touched then i said, “I wana go back Starbucks Manjung can?” LOL. Then he motivated me by telling me how hardworking i was and that got me reflecting on why i love being a barista in the first place. That was the motivation needed actually. Then i decided to accept the 1-week unpaid trial to practice using the coffee machine. I guess, if i apply at the other cafe, they will all be using similar type of machine so why not take this opportunity to familiarize myself and not screw up on my next interview/ trial.

And then i started looking for other alternative if Starbucks take their time to process their application. Wanted to try for a position in library. Yesterday they told me just drop my CV and they’ll contact me but until now i’m still procrastinating. Why am i so lazy? Is it because i’ve been out of job since Dec? T3T


Anyway, kinda miss working in a brainless, menial job like in a factory. The (only) best thing about working in NZ is no matter what shitty job you’re working in, you get paid the minimum wages $13.80 (before tax). So your wages for an 8-hour job is about $90 (after tax). NZ has really strict labour law. If you work more than 40 hours/week then your overtime wages is 1.5x more. Thus, most organization die die will only let you work max 40 hours/week because they don’t want to pay you overtime. Sucks for people who wana earn more money (like me) but that’s why i’m planning to get a 2nd job when my first job is stable. But now really have to start from scratch. Need to have more conversation with the universe so that it’ll grant me my dream job in Starbucks!


Has anybody realized? July iz hereeeee!!!

To kick start the coldest month of winter.

OMG Seriously?! Macam mana mau enjoy nih? This is depressing weather!

Good news is tomorrow the bf and i will check out internet plans for our house (like finally!) but it’ll probably take 1-2 weeks for them to install so in the meantime i still need to depend on library wifi. But how la like this! I hate going out in cold day. So this week will just be me fixing my resume, cooking, monopoly with myself and overused of mobile internet.

Reading blogs instead of doing something productive pfft. Taking in max satisfaction with my relationship with wi-fi here. Am reading about travel blog in Japan and i am sad to announce that my ability to read hiragana & katakana has deteriorated. I have troubles recognizing the characters wtf. Go back Malaysia must bring my Japs book here so that i can keep practising the language. #determined

Yay tomorrow is bf de day off! Gonna have Japs for lunch and then watch Transformer 4. Tonight is our weekly grocery night but since we still have a lot of meat, gonna splurge on mushroom this week. Menu for the week – egg soup, Korean porky dish, couscous (super love it! easiest, healthy & hearty meal!) pasta (so long no eat lor) and maybe pesto tortellini la. It iz the best! Aiyo all these only 5 meals, need to squeeze my brain juice to think of more recipes edi!

Oh, btw i make the best scramble eggs. So light and fluffy. I didn’t put any seasoning into it also feel so delish. Yums! Bf hasn’t had the chance to try it yet coz i cooked for myself during lunch. Anyway, the bf and i have very different style of cooking. I try to use as little seasoning as possible for the reason of kiamsiap + healthy LOL. But bf’s cooking are more flavourful and oily (sinful). I think he eats my healthy cooking until sienz jor until crave for oily food.

Oh i have a new addiction! Fried noodle haha. I shamelessly proclaim to make the best fried noodle. So this week gonna buy more noodles to cook. Wana cook tomyam flavour, gochujang flavour, sesame oil too and uhm that’s all i guess :X No more instant noodle for me for the time being. Sick of it jor. But the bf super love it. So you eat yourself ha!


Okay it’s 4.20pm already. Gotta walk back home soon or else it’ll be too cold.

Till then, see ya peeps!





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